Holy Crap!!!!!……….

It’s been almost 2 years since I’ve posted here. It’s not like nothing’s been going on there has been ALOT going on in my life.

Don’t worry, I’m still single not going done THAT road again.

Big C had a big down fall mentally and physically so I’ve been mostly focusing on her getting diagnosed and well again.

Basically she ended up again in the hospital a few times but we have FINALLY gotten a diagnosis she has Fibromyalgia. After many doctor’s, psychiatrists, counsellor, dietician’s we have a diagnosis and a treatment plan!

She is on permanent ODSP which is disability and just recently she did a Skype call with a Dr. in Ottawa who has prescribed her marijuana to manage her pain.

As the result of her fibromyalgia she lost almost 50 pounds drastically and we couldn’t figure out why. She also has, IBS irritable bowel syndrome,, and the depression and anxiety. This is all tied in together with the Fibro.

Anyways she’s on the right track physically and mentally now and GET THIS she has a BOYFRIEND NOW!!!

We will call him Mr. C.  He seems like a nice guy, treats her well all he needs to do now is to get a j.o.b.

Then I will like him even more.

We are still living in the Great White North and I’m still at the same job. And now that Big C has a life and is not home as much I now will have to find some stuff to do for myself now or I may end up staying home and be a “raging alcoholic” lol,,,, This does have a story to it and one day soon I will tell you about it. Let’s just say I work with some prreeetttyy weird people and there is some prreeettyy weird individuals that live in this small town.

Oh and we have a few more furry friends added to our family:


Kipper                          and                               Lola


Ya ya there are certainly a handful but they are worth it!

So let me know of any ideas of some hobbies I should look into,,,,give me all you got!


So what I took the summer off, what’s it to you??

Well, I didn’t really take the summer off . Just from blogging because I have been working my ass off since mid June at my new job at

Target, which I LOVE  by the way!!! 3 month probation is done in the next few days woohoooo!!

But I put this question out there for you all. Even tho I am now going from working only 25 hours a week to 40 hours a week why the hell am I STILL am struggling to pay the bills???

Seriously, I hate picking and choosing who to pay. Currently, I have no phone, while I catch up on internet and cable so that Big C has some mode of entertainment. As BIG C has had a relapse on her Anxiety Disorder and is again not working because of loosing her second job because of this stupid Anxiety Disorder.

I’m struggling to save up the money to pay for the missed Dr’s appt’s that she missed because of her anxiety of leaving the house, so that I can get her help. (I will now be attending all Dr’s appt’s with her so I know that she doesn’t have a anxiety attack and go home instead of making her way to the app’t)

I didn’t realize that the anxiety had reared it’s ugly head again until she lost her second job. The kid was embarrassed, disapointed in herself and confused to tell me. She felt that she was letting me  down. I explained to her that we need to work as a team and to get her help but the first step is to get back to the Dr. and to work on this head on. Unfortunately, I can not afford to get private help for her so we are going to need to go the hard, slow way and thru our Ontario health care.

It was suggested by the local Job Bank, that she should be applying for Disability. I have fought against this but I think she may just need to go this venue. It’s all very confusing and I have no idea on how to go about this. I hope getting back into the Dr, and asking his advice might shed a bit of light.

Sigh, it’s like a friggen revolving door I tell you.

In the meantime we are in the beginnings of working to open our own little online business of cute little Christmas Pillows, themed Pillows and Baby Quilts.

I’m a cool chick now and have opened up a pay pal account, a ebay account and have recently ordered some cute fabric from the states that will hopefully arrive at my door early next week, so we can get this going!

Here’s a pic of one of the panels I have coming!


Now that summer is just about done here (it never really did arrive in Ontario), we will be spending alot more time in doors sewing! And blogging of course!

How was your summer, what’s the latest gossip?  And any advice on how to go about getting help with going down the road for help with Big C would be appreciated!

Happy Mother’s Day and a excuse.




Oh and I’m a slacker on the Daily Music Challenge but I have a excuse I was called into work early both days and up working in the evenings with Big C getting her ready to start her new job teaching about how to run a cash system etc. I will update the challenge this evening when I get home.

Have a awesome day out there to all you wonderful mom’s and dad’s that do the job as the mom in your kids lives.

Day 6 of 25 Songs in 25 Days


First off can I ask you guys to send me good luck vibes today as I’m going for a very important job interview today @ 2:30 I really, really want & need this job so you vibes would be greatly appreciated.


Now to Day 6:

A song that reminds you of a best friend.

At this stage of my life I don’t really have a best friend, I guess I am my own best friend right now 🙂

So I chose a song that reminds me of my best friend while I was growning up. My friend absolutely loved, loved, LOVED this group. She loved them so much that at times I actually resented them taking so much of my friends time.


And, this one reminds me of my newest friend that I befriended whilst in school We used to watch all these videos during class when we were “supposed” to be doing medical transcription:


Have a good day peeps, and I’ll let you know how my interview went 🙂

Yaaayyy it’s my Birthday!!!

Today is my birthday and I am so happy to get rid of this last year.

Yaaay,,,I get to work at my new job at our new site doing store set up all day,,,yaayyyy,,,,I have a job!


I deserve cake and I left the hint(s) out for the kids,,before I left for work I left the cake mix, icing AND cake pan on the counter BESIDE the oven. It probably won’t look like the one above but it will be cake and it will be for me!!

There better be a friggen cake,,,that’s all.

Have a good day people 🙂

Three days in….


I saw this the day after New Year's would you try this for a hangover?

I saw this the day after New Year’s would you try this for a hangover?

3 days into 2014 and so far this year is going 10 times better than last year!

Although it is -40 freaking degrees here the sun is shining and the ice fishermen are in there element.

I have some news my friends, the first one is I have a job interview on Monday morning for a new Dollarama store opening up not far from my home. Yes it is just going from one minimum wage job to another but the hours would be bettter and I can probably work it so that I only have to work maybe 2 nights at the Wendy’s a week until Dollarama realizes just how valuable I am they will probably beg me to be there full-time (see positive thinking here, no negative nelly in 2014)!

My second piece of news is that when I went out on New Year’s Eve I sat at a table with a bunch of people and at this table was a guy visiting from out of town with his brother, we hit it off and shared some wings. He asked for my # I gave it too him. I didn’t think too much of it because after all it was New Year’s Eve (everyone was drinking) and he was from out of town (about 45mins away).

Well he texted me yesterday and wants to get to know me better. He has been seperated from his ex wife for 2 years and is just starting to date again so who knows how this may go.

I am in no way rushing into anything AGAIN. I will not change myself to be what another person wants me to be and I will not make any rash decisions. This is my new mantra and I will live by it for now on!

Still, it feels good to know that I am finally moving on.

And now I leave you with some pics I took on a walk I took on New Year’s Day downtown when everything was closed up after the partying the night before.

ny2                                                        ny1





Happy New!!

Happy New Year from me 🙂

My New Year’s resolutions are only 2 this year.

  1. Be Happy and find myself.
  2. Obtain a more meaningful career (that makes more moolaa cause that will make #1 easier 😉

Of course #1 is the most important.

I made realistic resolutions this years and I am determined to keep them.

I started last night when I finished working instead of just taking a taxi right home and vegging out in front of the t.v feeling sorry for myself.

Instead I waited for a bus and walked downtown, found a Buffalo Wild Wings family bar not too far from my apartment and had a beer at the bar, enjoyed talking to people young and old and watching a local young band.

In the end I really enjoyed myself. I need to make more of a effort to get out and meet new people and surround myself with people that have the same interests as me.

So I guess I really have 3 resolutions this year,, Silly me 🙂

What are your resolutions this year?

I leave you with a picture of the fireworks from our dining room window my daughter (who  was sick poor kiddo) sent me last night.


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