Holy Crap!!!!!……….

It’s been almost 2 years since I’ve posted here. It’s not like nothing’s been going on there has been ALOT going on in my life.

Don’t worry, I’m still single not going done THAT road again.

Big C had a big down fall mentally and physically so I’ve been mostly focusing on her getting diagnosed and well again.

Basically she ended up again in the hospital a few times but we have FINALLY gotten a diagnosis she has Fibromyalgia. After many doctor’s, psychiatrists, counsellor, dietician’s we have a diagnosis and a treatment plan!

She is on permanent ODSP which is disability and just recently she did a Skype call with a Dr. in Ottawa who has prescribed her marijuana to manage her pain.

As the result of her fibromyalgia she lost almost 50 pounds drastically and we couldn’t figure out why. She also has, IBS irritable bowel syndrome,, and the depression and anxiety. This is all tied in together with the Fibro.

Anyways she’s on the right track physically and mentally now and GET THIS she has a BOYFRIEND NOW!!!

We will call him Mr. C.  He seems like a nice guy, treats her well all he needs to do now is to get a j.o.b.

Then I will like him even more.

We are still living in the Great White North and I’m still at the same job. And now that Big C has a life and is not home as much I now will have to find some stuff to do for myself now or I may end up staying home and be a “raging alcoholic” lol,,,, This does have a story to it and one day soon I will tell you about it. Let’s just say I work with some prreeetttyy weird people and there is some prreeettyy weird individuals that live in this small town.

Oh and we have a few more furry friends added to our family:


Kipper                          and                               Lola


Ya ya there are certainly a handful but they are worth it!

So let me know of any ideas of some hobbies I should look into,,,,give me all you got!


Dissection of a NARC’s online dating profile



I am Seeking Woman Victim
For Long term As long as I can victiize you
Needs Test Not Completed Chemistry View his chemistry results
Do you drink? Socially Functioning Alcoholic Do you want children? No
Marital Status Divorced Do you do drugs? NoAlcohol is my drug of choice
Pets No Pets Eye Color Brown
Do you have a car? Yes and don’t ever close the doors the wrong way
Do you have children? Yes But my son is my favorite, my other 2 daughters and grandchildren mean nothing to me.
Longest Relationship Over 10 years Shocking right? I found some poor sucker that stayed so long.

Music Movies Summer
Boating Hockey Nascar
Bon fires Hot summer nights Walks in the bush in the summer
Anything we can do outside in the summer
About Me Rule #1 it’s always all about ME.
I am a kind and good hearted guy, I do not like playing head games. Haha,,another joke,,,I only play head games.
I live alone in my house in the country, Don’t worry that every SINGLE upgrade to this old house has been funded by the last 2 woman in my life,,,you will definately get the chance to contribute.
The summer is my favorite time of year, sitting around the bonfire with friends(nevermind that I don’t have any) listening to music, classic rock mostly, and having couple(aka copius amounts until I am staggering,and start singing at the top of my lungs like a moron to these stupid old songs,,,oh and you are required to tell me how super awesome I am) of drinks on a warm night.
I love to cook, BBQ’s are the best, I BBQ all year round. Nevermind, that I only cook the same thing all the time,,and you are to NOT add any spice at all to mine OR your meal,,,because I am the man and if that’s how I like then you must like it that way too.
Yes I am 51 but people meeting me for the first time think I’m 40 ( have all my hair (and teeth..lol) and no grey). Your only as old as you feel. I do however smoke like a chimney and my teeth are all yellow and I smell like shit. I will repeatedly bitch to you behind closed doors how old I feel, you must stroke my ego and in public rave about how lucky you are to have a older man that doesn’t look his age and he wears you out in the bedroom **wink, wink,,,because afterall, I expect sex EVERY single day,,and for you to perform on me whenever I so choose.
Laughter IS the best medicine. I guess that’s why I am in good health……Even tho I had many warning strokes this past summer, and was told to stop smoking ASAP,,,those silly stupid Dr.’s are all wrong.Instead,,my prescription is to increase my smoking. They also are totally wrong saying that I need a sleep apnea machine,,I don’t deserve to have my license suspended because they feel so strongly about it. They are all wrong.
My son plays guitar and is in a band that plays classic rock. He brings a guitar out when we have bonfires and plays and sings. He is my most favorite child,,,and doesn’t care that I make him do this.
I enjoy going out to pub type bars with local bands playing and love to dance.It doesn’t matter that this was 20years ago. I will promise to take you out to dinner all the time,,,but I just say that,,I never really will.
I work full time at a job I really enjoy.They couldn’t run the company without me. They better hope I never quit,,because the whole million dollar company would surely fall apart without me.
I’m into photography and have a good imagination for taking really cool shots. My best shots are of dragon flys having sex and old fashion water pumps. I will print them out and hang them all over my home and yours! You will brag about how awesome I am at all times.
I am looking for that special gal to spend quality time with and possibly a long term relationship with. Until of course your either broke, now longer serve my needs or question my absolute awesomeness. 
Could this be you? Could you be my next victim?
Talk soon. I mean, you will listen, obey and worship me soon.

5 things I have learned since I left.

  1. I have not laughed entirely  enough in the last 9 months.
  2. My kids really are truly my rock and have inherited there sense of humour from their mom.
  3. I’m a really smart girl.
  4. I can do this.
  5. I need to follow my gut and instincts in the future.


# 5 is the most important out of all of them. It’s been 5 days  and I haven’t heard one word from the ex, I knew that this was going to happen. But it still hurts a bit and it hurts my self esteem a bit as well. I mean, I did everything for this person, I did his laundry, made dinner, baked, hand washed the dishes, cleaned his house and his washroom,money, gave him encouragement,sexual relations,  love and my heart.

Most men would fight to keep a good woman like me,,,isn’t that what a man wants?

I guess I’m a glutton for punishment because I did something I shouldn’t have done today, I checked the dating website that we met on,,and I don’t know why I was so surprised to see him back on there spreading all his narcissistic ego bull crap (and the prick even used the pics I took of him,,,,how pathetic).

Sure,,,it hurt the old ego but, it also given me strength to follow my instincts and to move on eventually. I won’t be looking for a relationship any time soon,,,but I will still have the hope of one day meeting someone who will value all that I have to offer.

I have learned to not rush into a relationship, to take it very slow and perhaps be over cautious if he is the right man he will understand how I have been hurt in the past.