Day 7 of 25 Songs in 25 Days & I nailed it!

First off I nailed my interview yesterday for the new Target store opening up in my city and was offered a position on the spot! Now to just pass my criminal check and all systems are a go! Big C has her interview on Thursday, so please keep your fingers crossed for her!

Now to Day 7 of this lovely challenge brought to us by Mr. Twin Daddy.

A song that reminds you of the past summer.

Ohhhh lordy that’s a hard one. Last summer I was living with the ex, while I enjoyed living out in the country I was constantly on pins and needles trying to make him happy and being everything he wanted. I was slowly becoming isolated and not being the person that I used to be.

This song describes the narcissistic prick to the tee and I hope he’s happy living in his little dream world. I like to think that one day he will realize what he’s lost when it comes to me but in reality narcissists never do. Meh,,life goes on.

Have a great day 🙂

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Three days in….

 

I saw this the day after New Year's would you try this for a hangover?

I saw this the day after New Year’s would you try this for a hangover?

3 days into 2014 and so far this year is going 10 times better than last year!

Although it is -40 freaking degrees here the sun is shining and the ice fishermen are in there element.

I have some news my friends, the first one is I have a job interview on Monday morning for a new Dollarama store opening up not far from my home. Yes it is just going from one minimum wage job to another but the hours would be bettter and I can probably work it so that I only have to work maybe 2 nights at the Wendy’s a week until Dollarama realizes just how valuable I am they will probably beg me to be there full-time (see positive thinking here, no negative nelly in 2014)!

My second piece of news is that when I went out on New Year’s Eve I sat at a table with a bunch of people and at this table was a guy visiting from out of town with his brother, we hit it off and shared some wings. He asked for my # I gave it too him. I didn’t think too much of it because after all it was New Year’s Eve (everyone was drinking) and he was from out of town (about 45mins away).

Well he texted me yesterday and wants to get to know me better. He has been seperated from his ex wife for 2 years and is just starting to date again so who knows how this may go.

I am in no way rushing into anything AGAIN. I will not change myself to be what another person wants me to be and I will not make any rash decisions. This is my new mantra and I will live by it for now on!

Still, it feels good to know that I am finally moving on.

And now I leave you with some pics I took on a walk I took on New Year’s Day downtown when everything was closed up after the partying the night before.

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I’m out and now I can’t sleep

It’s 1:52 am and I’m sitting in my children’s father’s living room wide awake. Mostly I think i’m so awake because I fell asleep at 8pm after having so little sleep after the events of the night before. Also, maybe i’m awake because I don’t have to be worried anymore, I’m in a safe place with a very optimistic future.

When I left yesterday, I left a note to the ex, that I would have the movers there next month on the 16th, and to please make sure he was there (I want him there so he can’t accuse me of taking any of his precious crap), I didn’t tell him where I was going, just that I had found a place to stay until my apt is ready.

Shortly, after I left and was with my kids and their dad,,I found myself thinking/warning myself of things not to do, things that the ex was always complaining about for example,,,older daughter got into the car and slammed the door as teens do, inside I cringed,,,don’t slam the door it upsets ex,,,,

Watching tv,,I realized my kids were asking my opinion on what to watch and I realized it was ok to give suggestions, I found myself joking with my girls and later when I was tucked into bed with my older daughter,,I found myself giggling with her over a Family Guy episode (I was never aloud to watch that crap at ex’s) and it felt good to laugh and feel happy again.

I have another job interview tomorrow it’s for a seasonal position at a Hallmark store so that’s good, and I’m now reunited with my kitty:

She doesn't like her picture taken,

She doesn’t like her picture taken, scaredy cat.

Most people that I talked too today, are concerned that he will take his anger and revenge out on what little I have left at his place. I truly think and know that he won’t do anything to it,,,mostly because it would inconvenience him to have to make the effort to get rid of my stuff and also because he knows that I will tell his friends and neighbours and that would make him look like the “bad guy”. Also, I don’t really care if he takes his anger out on it, because it’s just stuff and stuff can be replaced with newer stuff.

True to the Narcissistic character descriptions that I have  read I have not heard one word from him,,,I’m gone, he doesn’t care because life simply revolves around him, he truly believes that everyone is wrong and out to get him. I hope he enjoys living in his little wonderful, perfect world.

I pity the next unsuspecting woman who enters that world.

The crap hit the fan last night,,and now I’m homeless

BUT,,i’m OK with that 🙂

I tried, I really, really tried to keep my mouth shut and not explode to his assholiness,,,,but I just couldn’t do it.

He had been bugging me for days wondering why I wasn’t acting normal,,why I didn’t want to have sex or cuddle anymore and he finally broke me.

So,,,I told him exactly what I thought of him. What I thought of his “rules” and his narcissistic attitude.

I don’t even know why I was so shocked when he denied everything and then he told me that I was the one with the problem and that I have mental problems.

Hey mister the only mental problem I have is being stupid enough to put up with his bullshit for so long.

I was then banished to the spare bedroom and told that he will not drive me to school anymore. That pissed me off,,basically keeping me hostage in the house.

My plan was to call the women’s hotline this morning when he went to work, but I now have another plan.

I’m staying home from school (even tho he pounded on my door this morning and said he WOULD drive me to school because he’s not THAT mean pfffft,,whatever).

I’m staying home packing up my shit, putting it all in the spare bedroom and going to stay with my kids dad until my apartment that I got is ready for Nov 15th.

I will leave him a note that I will have movers there on the morning of the 16th to move the stuff,,,and then he can go to hell for all I care.

Even tho this is a shitty situation for me for the next 4 weeks,,,I’m still seeing the brighter side of things.

  1. I have a new awesome super job,,,which although it’s only part time,,,it’s still a job. I can still look for something else as well.
  2. I have found a nice apartment, and signed the lease. And although it won’t be ready until the 15th, it’s being painted, with new carpet, it’s in a beautiful area and my balcony over looks the lake and is within walking distance to downtown and the bus stop is outside my front door.
  3. I have a meager savings.
  4. I will be with my children.
  5. I have finally broken away from the narcissistic jerk!!!!!