5 things I have learned since I left.

  1. I have not laughed entirely  enough in the last 9 months.
  2. My kids really are truly my rock and have inherited there sense of humour from their mom.
  3. I’m a really smart girl.
  4. I can do this.
  5. I need to follow my gut and instincts in the future.

 

# 5 is the most important out of all of them. It’s been 5 days  and I haven’t heard one word from the ex, I knew that this was going to happen. But it still hurts a bit and it hurts my self esteem a bit as well. I mean, I did everything for this person, I did his laundry, made dinner, baked, hand washed the dishes, cleaned his house and his washroom,money, gave him encouragement,sexual relations,  love and my heart.

Most men would fight to keep a good woman like me,,,isn’t that what a man wants?

I guess I’m a glutton for punishment because I did something I shouldn’t have done today, I checked the dating website that we met on,,and I don’t know why I was so surprised to see him back on there spreading all his narcissistic ego bull crap (and the prick even used the pics I took of him,,,,how pathetic).

Sure,,,it hurt the old ego but, it also given me strength to follow my instincts and to move on eventually. I won’t be looking for a relationship any time soon,,,but I will still have the hope of one day meeting someone who will value all that I have to offer.

I have learned to not rush into a relationship, to take it very slow and perhaps be over cautious if he is the right man he will understand how I have been hurt in the past.