What has happened to my writing mojo?

I used to be able to write on my old blog all the time. I looked forward to it and I had actual stuff to say.

Now I don’t seem to have a lot to write or talk about.

Sure I could bitch and complain about how I have been feeling sorry for myself over the last few days. Wondering why I can’t seem to meet the right person, wondering what is wrong with me and then wondering why I feel that I need to have anyone in my life at all?

I could write about how I felt so much better about leaving the ex after I had to call him tonight and ask him to drop my winter coat off at where I am staying because winter has decided to rear it’s coldness on us. Can you believe the moron had the balls to tell me that he doesn’t remember ever even asking me to move in with him? He says that I just moved my stuff in,,,,,,wow what a delusional nut. Thank sweet baby jesus that I am rid of that douche bag.

I am seriously thinking of sending a email to his ex before me and apologizing for thinking so badly about her and for believing his clearly made up stories he told me about her. (If I do, do that I will make sure it’s once all my stuff is moved out on the 16th.)

Anyways,,I am off of work this weekend so older daughter and I are going Couch shopping,,,,I’ll take a pic and post which one we  I pick (it is my money afterall)     😉

What are your plans for this upcoming weekend?  How do you get your writing mojo back?

 

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Ok I need help please….

With my stupid gravator thingy,,,,,it’s pissing me the hell off.

It NEVER comes up on my dashboard, on my blog page, or in my comments. Well It did once today,,and on a comment over on Stuphblog,,,wth?

How do I get this to work??? I have been playing with it for 2 damn days.

Answers anyone????

Ultimatums

BF got me these flowers on his way home from work earlier this week,,,,soooo pretty and unexpected. He says he just wanted to show me how much he loves me, awwwwww.

flowers2

The last month has been a little rocky between the two of us. Ever since his “episode”,

You see, it seems he had a warning stroke. Nothing too bad, but enough for me to pressure him to go to the hospital and the doctor. Even though he was told at “both” appointments that he needs to STOP smoking right away, or he will have a major stroke or heart attack. He still hasn’t. I regress. Guess he has to learn the hard way. And,, I will get to say,,,see I and “they” told you so.

He goes next monday for a ultra sound of his neck and heart,,,here’s to them finding something that will truly scare him into shape.

So, during this trying time in our relationship he has told me twice, that if I didn’t stop bugging him,,that I could move out. So basically, if I don’t sit back and quietly watch him kill himself, I am free to leave. That PISSED me off. I am NOT going to be emotionally abused. Been there done that,,,,not about to do that again.

Here’s the problem,,,,I’m currently in school and unemployed. I can’t start working until after October when I get my last and final gov’t loan payment about $6,000. I originally was going to use that money for a new car, and also to go away on a trip to Cuba with bf after school is done in March, as a reward for the last 2yrs of school.

Now I have a new and revised plan,,,,I am now going to put $2,000 in a “emergency move” account, $1,000 to go away, because I have depression and we have had a crappy summer,,I know I am going to need to go some place warm and sunny for a boost of Vitamin D, AND because I deserve to go away, with or without BF.

Anyways,,because of my financial situation I have found myself biting my tongue and not saying anything that “might” set bf into giving me the option of leaving. But you sure as hell can believe that once that money is in my account,,,,I WILL no longer be biting my tongue, and if he doesn’t like it. Tough shit.

I have absolutely NO problem living on my own, and if bf keeps up with his threats he will be living alone too.

So,,,back to the point about my flowers,,,the weekend before I received my pretty bouquet  we went over to visit with another couple (bf has been friends with them for well over 20yrs)  and while there, I told the female friend about bf’s health issue (he doesn’t want his friends to know), and also about his ultimatums. In the end we had a nice day, we went home and we forgot to bring home some stuff that we had brought so bf stopped by the next night on his way home and picked up what we forgot. I’m thinking that he got a little bit of a talking too from female friend,,and voila “flowers”!
 
OK, onto the next vent,,,,this is a general “male” vent. 
Wth,,,is it with men and there cars?
Bf spent over 2 hours yesterday morning (Sunday),,,washing and waxing his car. Now, I have absolutely NO problem with that,,,hey it gets him out of the house and under my feet. 
Here’s the thing tho,,,,,we went grocery shopping shortly thereafter. And here’s how he just HAD to park the car:
Notice,,the car showroom parking job!  Ohhh,,I bet all the other men in the parking lot,,were sooo in awe of the awesome wash and polish job!

Notice,,the car showroom parking job! Ohhh,,I bet all the other men in the parking lot,,were sooo in awe of the awesome wash and polish job!

Here’s the other thing,,,,he’s been bitching EACH AND EVERY EVENING, about the construction going on in front of his workplace and the dust mess it’s causing. In fact that is WHY he washed the car in the first place!

Stay tuned for next time when you tune in to find out if he bitched even more about the mess his car is in after work on Monday!

School starts at 1pm this week,,,,so I get to sleep in and enjoy a nice quiet peaceful morning with a good cup of tea and read up on my fav blogs!

Have a awesome day guys 🙂

P.S. I don’t know why the stupid font changed halfway thru this post,,,and it wouldn’t change back,,,lol

 
 
 
 
 
 

Welcome to my new place!

Hi there friends:

Welcome to my new blog!

Many of you that are visiting, are invited friends from my other blog that is still in existence.

If your new WELCOME!

My reason for starting a new blog is that I feel that I have lately been wanting to write about things that are more personal to me. And for that I have chosen to keep my picture and names secret. I have too many friends, schoolmates, family, children and a boyfriend that know about my “other” blog and because I don’t want to hurt people’s feelings I have found that I am always watching what I say or what I post about, which has been resulting in me not having much to talk or vent about, lol.

As most of you know,,,I like to bitch and complain about stupid people in my little world. I also want to vent about things going on in my life,,such as bf, school, family, past relationships and how I came to be the person I am now.

Anyways,,,WELCOME TO MY NEW PAD!!    Grab a seat,,,and a glass of red wine from my large box of wine in the fridge, make yourself comfortable and come back often!!

welcome