No,,I have NOT changed my mind to leave.
After this past wknd and last night, it just has reinforced my decision.
Last night the “man”,,, purposely set me up to try to argue with him over everything. He is trying to make me doubt my decision to move out and trying to plant it in my mind that I will fail and be out in the streets. I’m beginning to think i’m losing my mind.
I made a decision and looked up the local woman’s shelter’s in the town that I will be moving too. (there isn’t one where I am now,,it’s just a village with about 25 families max here.)
So that I can get info on places to live, help with setting up the place, and info to help me gain employment once I’m there. Also,,some info on what resources are out there in the event I don’t find something right away.
I’m hoping that me having a little nest egg will be a asset in helping me get a successful plan.
I’m afraid they won’t believe me because I have no physical scars. I also feel like they will look down on me,,I mean I’m a smart well educated person how the hell did I get myself into this mess.
One of the girls that I confide too in class, brought it to my attention, that he is probably doing what he’s doing because although he doesn’t verbalize it,,,he is scared that I am leaving him for good. Which IS the real plan but I have told him otherwise and that it’s to gain employment and to help set my daughter up to live on her own.
As this time is getting closer,,,i’m starting to get a little bit more afraid,,,,so I think I will feel better with a plan.
I have also decided to remove my wordpress app right now off my phone so if in the event he try’s to look thru my phone he won’t find this blog. So if I don’t respond to people during the evening hours that’s why. And,,I have added a password,,so he can’t get to my emails.
I’m currently waiting for a return call from the shelter,,because no one answered,,,I had to leave a message
Is this a good step?? Advice thoughts??